fix me

August 13, 2013
Mood : tunggu meteor shower
--------Colplay - Fix You---------- 

harini join konvoi geng sekolah menengah. nice to see them all gf doing well. :)
Aku, Adila, Shida, Kathy, Mas, Teha, Mimi, Ain, Acheh, Wani, Qama, Putri.

  tiga tahun berlalu. sumpah, takde apa yang berubah dengan perangai masing-masing.
bezanya, kita makin matang, dah pandai make-up, dah tak selebet macam zaman sekolah, dah ada pakwe, dah bawak kereta. Aha, dulu, konvoi naik bas, sanggup round satu taman jalan kaki. Iya, semuanya tiga tahun dulu. Gelak sama-sama, reminiscing about the happy-past. Ah, school life is always a happy life. Damn too happy life. Cant i just go back to that time. i wish the clock will just stop ticking.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Tiga tahun berlalu,
And i asked myself again, what have i achieved this past three years. what did i gained, what did i lost, what ive done to myself, wondering if i am still me. wondering if i am a better me. all kind of thoughts came. And i cried again. i tried to agree, i wanted to, proudly saying YES! I AM A BETTER ME! but i cant, and i wont, because deep inside, i know, its not true.

I asked myself again, three years from now,
where would i stand, if im still here, hidupkah, matikah? Wallahalam
i dont know.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

 ps : Fix me.